Talking with B in Kensington yesterday: “I just got out of a 3-day detox. It wasn’t enough. But something is different this time. Something clicked in my head and I know why I can’t stay clean. This life is what I know – I know how to be a drug addict and to live on the streets and do the things I do to get what I need. What if I get clean and I don’t succeed? I’m good at this. What if I’m not good at being clean? What if I fail? I’m scared. I’m afraid to get clean and not know what to do. I’m afraid to fail, so I stay out here. I know that’s fucked up.”